genting trip

i went to genting for our so called '' class trip '' for 3 days 2 nights umm ... did'nt have much fun there , i guess i did'nt enjoy much but think more instead. ending up sick , well sore throat >.< infact all the outdoor theme park games , haha i've tried em all woohoo . the unforgettable one , which is the space shot !! haha many people felt shocked about it haha and fear towards it ~! haha , i follow the girls play becoz i felt like it lols , im such a follower =p but who cares ? as long i had fun at the lil moment haha

well as far i can remember i also tried on the flying coaster !! haha the one that took my breath away haha , one round of that ride included that 720 degree turn ! and omg ! i fear that my friend will puke on me haha , such a loser lol wahahaaa


the girls

bowling in genting !! wahaha we played crazilly haha , of coz lee ping won every match !! damnn her !! becoz of my sick condition ! if not i will always be the first for sure !!

that's me wahaha
BEFORE

lee ping , the look after she throw the bowling ball
AFTER

her look for a monkey buisness !! wahaha


haha kiddy games !! in a bowling alley !!



my friends and i , and i am on the right !!

taken that lovely picture with the retard me before leaving genting



well so long and farewell , my fellow mates

why today ?

why ?? what sort of thing happen around me again ??
i just doing something good to benefit u people ??
and why ?? why u just left me like this ??
just one text and u left me alone on this lonely road ??
why left me in a time like this ??
why two together at once ??

i cant think of a way out
it seems problems are rapidly coming and coming




is there so many obstacles around me ???
two roads clashing ?? affected my thinking and health ??
migrain lately , health is against me too



everything messed up

stress kao la

someone help me !! i damn kao stress , and i need an assistant !!


call 017-2632667
call for more details

im back

well its after spm , im online as usual , infact i did'nt off at all .
haha im back coz someone is complaining that my blog is growing fungi ! lols spider web by now haha all over ! spider man was here *

anyway days goes by , i really being distracted by alot of things , the wounded me was no longer crying in the dark , or bleeding >.< its just those dark moments are way long gone =.= recently dunno what to talk to u , umm dunno at all

i hated highschool life as usual , hate the system , hate the teachers , hate everyone .. i guess that is what i do haha . end of highschool makes me feel more lifeless , not feeling like working

family problems as usual , freaking old man again !! arghhh *hope he die faster *

love life ?? lol its confidential , umm arghh fu*k it again man =p



music life and art life ?? umm theres a lil change in me , i hear black metal and hard rock !! Japanese lala rock also got !! haha
could'nt draw , as if i lost my limbs sobs



my sleeping time are exchange , as if i sold my soul towards the demon ! haha long live satan !! lols and i've became anti christ lately !! haha

ummm ummmmmmmmmmmmmm





ummmmmmmmm ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm



and i learn to play drum just right a day before sejarah spm !! lols kanasai !! wahaha

random me

haha nothing to do , that is why i drew this

fuck it !!

i fucking fail again !! ji baii pukima !! mama pndek luu !!

fucking shit up + panic = fucking leave the classroom

fucked life + fucked spm = i dunno what the hell am i

i am not facing it at all

from what i know , i am freaking shit off with history paper and now maths , teacher i really let u down .

my stupidity and arrogant attitude towards education is a shame to everyone .
i cant face myself anymore = ..(
i felt useless and lifeless

i cant believe i fuck spm
and i wasted my fucking life and commit to something shit up
i've wasted my youth joining stupid shit up stuff

a dark road and got fallen from the highway , and realised i am the worse

to live in malaysia , i hope my bm can pass just to get that cert
at least a cert to state my failure

my dream is to get into the one academy where my art life starts
i just hope that they will accept me in , not based on my results but i can really draw and i have a mind that is not common compared to other human beings


i cant even open my mind to think and just shit up
i even call myself a fucked up and wasted sperm of nature
laughing away my youth away

people say that study is the most important and easy thing for a human to do ,
if that person could'nt get that , there's no difference compared to a barbarian

ended writing in a sick condition

nothing can let me down

nothing can let me down these few moments , im fully motivated !!

im going to do my best in my spm !
spm is gonna determine my life !
im gonna proove to all the fuckers in the world !
i can do it !
i am positive thinking !




if u think u can ,
then u can !

fuck that sohai

im fucking emotional right now ! fuck highschool life , fuck teenager's time , fucking family relationship , fuck everthing ~!


so called dad ! deng u , i declare that i am adopted ! fucking sohai

he ruin my mood once again !
he pressure me during pmr ! i had enough with u

and now ??

u wan to fuck with me about spm ! go die !

ji baii he wants me to move out from this house ??
who the fuck is he ??
he is a fucking old man !

and thanks alot to u mum ! i really hate u too
u help me and stabb me at the back once more

i really dun have this kind of heart towards mankind and love anymore !
i am off alone !

fuck that shit ! fuck everything fuck life !

just nice to ruin my fucking mood for spm ! great isn't it ??
i am fucking mad ! fuck everything that sohai made me became this !!

why emotionally ?? why and what the fuck ??
i already fucking ignore u ! why tiu kao me ??

u freaking lifeless shits !!

graduation day

graduation day , kind a like a nice day haha . ends up not so nice for me , umm maybe im not seeking that kind of picture taking fun ^^ but im ok with it. i got encourage from my dear teachers ^^ love them , pn.NG, pn LIM ,pn LOO and puan shalawati ^^ miss them so much =)

although so called ''last day '' but i dun think that i will shed a tears. perhaps i dun really care so much ?? but at the same time my inner self wanted to care as much as i do , but i told myself , the results show them that how good they are ^^

anyway i've been taken some pictures with my friends , unfortunately one online and send the picture to me ^^


its me and my dear friend cheau wei

heehee cheau wei remember our promise !! heeehee

its time

umm perhaps we spm students know that spm is around 4 days more or less ??

i went out and spend my evening in sunway for the jazz night, its a first time i went for a place like that, drank beer , and i went red so quickly.
luckly i never smoke , but i really found it ok with the bands there , i apologise haha im a music idiotic haha .

well my friend justin introduce namHon to me ,haha a fucking friend ^^ haha fun though , seriously wacky haha =) umm we drank once again haha after a few songs we went to kayu for teh ais , irrisistable.

tomorrow is the final day of school , high school i meant ending my teenage life here ... as time flies by
hate going to school is becoz of the stupid hall thing so called graduation


haha my hair is long edii haha *sorry for the vain =p *
school rules haha , u think i care ?? o.o
come la siva exspell me tomorrow la haha , since last day , already one month haha
now like korean guy's hair wahahah
umm dunno maybe getting highlights haha , but malaysia surely damn hot
hot weather reminds me of sweat !! and i hate thaT !!

anyway i gotta sleep early tonight , i always forget sleeping
and end up waking up in the afternoon ^^

gtg =)

gundam00 second season !!

finally i've awaited !! and now its downloadable !!

gundam 00 2nd season
sunrise production ^^




lock-on and setsuna
my favourite character !!
skillfull gundam meisters ^^





meet the characters
from clockwise lock-on , tiera , allelujah and setsuna









this was the models and displaying exactly frmo the last scene of season one ~

im still middle of nowhere

well i duno what makes me blog for so early in the morning umm 1.36Am ??
u guess i feel very lonely for the day and i wan to share and spit it out ,
i hope this will make me feel better . but school life will be ending in one month's time ?? honestly when everytime i said that i dun miss , behind those shits , i actually enjoy but not 100%. highschool to me is something dreadfull , politics ?? kind a but still its life ....

i watch loveguru , and guru pitka said when u are nowhere , well now u are ''now - here '' i guess i am still figuring it out and if u want to find a fastest way to solve a problem ?? , well throw the problem to a lazy person , they will find a shortcut to solve it !! i guess it sounds wacky , but its true well this is the second thing which i am gonna practise ^^

i've also encouraged by some of my dear friends , they really made me wake up and ready for battle in life , but still my mind might not accept it , yet life goes on




yet still awake =.=
studying , << trying very hard to

i felt better in time

im back blogging haha , umm umm recently i totally kept myself busy.
studying , lots of reading , and been staying in friends house.
just to hold myself from my com addiction,
it went pretty well,

my driving agent friend told me to push 50 sales and during this period of spm,
i felt a lil impossible ,
and i dun have any confident in doing that,
my revision still half way hanging.
umm about ''her'' i guess the feeling is no longer there ,
perhaps fading , i even can joke even more better with her ,
perhaps best friend ^^

my friendster was darn active recently,
lots of friends ^^
i met this girl ^^
she's like me too , she draw haha anime ^^ woohoo
smsed her lately , hope we can meet =)
i even ask her to teach me how to draw girl anime << i really suck in it =p
she's a nice person haha
i felt people around me are having their own problems too /
so i shall not be so upset about my problems

well i skipped school for almost one month ,
and my lifestyle is sickenning >.<
woke up at 11am and use to computer
just to give myself excuses that my phone did'nt set the clock >.<
and so i on friendster and check email and stuff
there's one time haha , i was scolded from one of my dearest friend^^
well i know its you , so u dun need to feel wrong about scolding me ,
u really say words from your heart ,
i really appreciate that thanks ~
now i know who care me the most ^^

anyway , studying is not tough at all just that ,
im not that maths and science person ,
and thanks to my friends and sisters who support my back ^^
i appreciate u all haha

friends just remain as friends,
buddies just remain buddies ,
i learn something else frmo the movie love guru,
guru pitka lols ,
he's totally wacky like me !! haha but he is my sensei !! woohoo

haha my favourite movie ^^

anyway lots of nice things he said , just that he made it look stupid
i also wish i can write a book about my life ^^
besides that i also learn something frmo my friend's mistakes
but i've picked a line or two from
his blog:[是你的就是你的； 不是你的就不是你的 ;是我的就是我的； 不是我的就不是我的]
saying that:[ whats yours is yous , whats not yours are always not yours]

it can be apply in every situation , umm especially love ^^
okok i'll better head back to my darling books haha lols
study time ~

is it me ??

funny thing , i felt changes

this afternoon i went to get some notes from my friend's house , umm she said that i look skinnier and taller ?? umm is that true ?? i was surprised

after that i went to ss2 for pasar malam, there's my china friend even as about my age , whether am i 18 ?? lols that young merr ?? my other friend laugh like shit , lols ?? kid ? haha

just felt shit up ~

after dinner , i chat with some of my nerdy friends about i started studying ~
they ''laugh'' once again !! walao weii ~ they think i am fucking life coz i work outside during spm year , i was like whats wrong man ?? can't a person like me study ?? they even think that i will skipp spm ?? what the shits ??


i just feel : '' walao weii !! '' << why u guys think i am a person like that one ?? they even think i will joke my life away man haih i dun wan to spend my whole time cleaning the drains with my wife man !! come on a man should have a target to accheive what a man needs !! no matter chicks or money ?? or even buisness !! im gonna have it all !! im glad that i am back on the track again ! bye bye emos !!




i felt motivated !! out of no where

i was lost

lost again , so i went out cycle to make myself better , i speed and speed
i realise that i dun have that strengh and stamina anymore but why ??

im feeling sad again , but i dun wan to. this feeling is just like rain . it comes when it wanted to run and speed !! and dun wan to come back

i wan to speed and speed and never return , hope i can go to one place where people are just like a happy fairy tale and have a happy ending

fairy tale ?? impossible , i have to face the fact , forget means forget
everytime when it rains flashes and pieces of memory just appear in my head as always , sweet moment of the past

unforgettable

just a little bit

fianlly those misunderstanding days were over , i finally can sleep peacefully . Somehow my mind did'nt wonder on its own , felt comfortable just a little bit .
Every night , my mind wonders in the past and future , what is my dream is telling me ??

i see people and places which i felt familiar , but i was in some funny clothes , one thing i am sure that it was'nt fake , and in my dream i have this kind of ability to see through dimention , i can read people's minds and heart too .
then she got into my head once again , that feeling of pain and scream ,a scream of a girl which makes my heart bleed .

awwfull ~ dredfull ~ and totally felt pain

my dreams are just like visions , it always jump here and teleport to some other places and totally different time , from the past , present and the future .
i will suffer amnesia when ever i woke up , my head is totally oily and sweaty .
i hate this kind of feeling when i am asleep. i guess something disturb my mind .
lost of memory when ever i try to remember it.

i will have flashes of every lost piece of memory , when the sky is dark and drizzle . i always wonder what is she doing and what am i doing to myself , and i thinking and feeling something wrong ??

i started working with my friend just to find a way to forget about that whole thing , but everytime when i lay my head on my bed , i just felt it back again , its like coming back to me once again . those moments , those feelings , those incident , those scars , those memory ...

i felt this is real

its just yesterday , after finish talking , i feel like hearing this song
it just make me feel better although a king but he needs to find his queen

''QUEEN OF MY HEART '' - westlife


So here we stand
In our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd
Is so far away
You take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say
Do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again

But no matter how far (no matter how far)
Or where you may be (where you may be)
I just close my eyes (just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

Oh yeah
You're the queen of my heart (queen of my heart)
No matter how many years it takes (queen of my heart)
i'm coming home to you
Oh yeah (queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are
The queen of my heart

''A wall had build strong and high between us''

i could only remember this line , for the rest of my life

''A wall had build strong and high between us '' = to me is no more friend/no hope ??

i really dun wan to end it like this ...
i dun even feel that was me ,
is there any misunderstanding between us ??
u've locked your blog ,
which sometihng i know about it ,
it makes me wonder more ,
face it or dun face it ?
i wanted to escape a long time ago ,
just wan to let u go

anyway do whatever u like , i will keep myself away just to be near u
i dun wan those memory come back
or even flashback
i just wan to vanish and never return
i guess i am curse in such a way
which i dunno how ??

i also hope u can get a guy who loves u alot
and i hope u will know how to appreciate a friend's care
i guess these days i really analyze a person u are
till i can read u like a book
which i really do

i will make my conclusion short
and will shorten my part
i guess if it was a mistake to love u
i guess i really have the courage of try to love u
but things just got bumpy on the way
i just do things on my way

i really hate people talking bad about something
i've change to hate people like betrayers or even anything
its ok , to build relationship
but talking bad about people is something that should'nt be in a friendship

well do anything u like ,
i've done my part as a friend
''if u really think i was a friend of yours ''
go on and hear to other people talking about
whatever i do ??
and just go clubbing
just do whatever u wanted to

i just wanna tell u
i will cut the crap out of the things i'll do to u
another mile to avoid from u
just another space to forget you

day of expected and unexpected

th day have arrived in my thoughts of this day along time ago
it all began by a person which i cant forgive
a person whom i trusted once and will never trust
since this post is to let a special person in my heart to see
i know its hard where u heard both sides of people talking about me

but

i just have one thing to say , its hard for me too
since the day i have that feelings towards you,i already told myself its impossible
its already a mistake , but what i can say that i am not pretending anything
things gets harsh when i can't keep my emotions and my feelings
i mix with u its not becoz i wan to kao u
i help u its not becoz i wanna have a chance to say i love you
i mix with your friends is not becoz i wanna check on you
i do so many things is not to make myself look like a good man
but ~
i do whatever things to u all its friendship and true
i benefit u people , but nothing benefits me
i can say that its a development of my sweat and blood

i would like to tell u , but i cant
the truth is , that night at your sister's wedding,
i was not pretending to purposely to stay in your house,
i just wan to rest for a while due to my head was heavy,
and its hard to be concious
believe what u think its right , i will not stop u
i even know that u think i am following u to the kitchen just to do something that u might thought of ??

lemme tell u , i just wan to lend your housephone to call my dad not to latch the main door

its very simple , becoz u hear to your aiya sister say and u forget what we have as friendship ?

i feel very disapointed when i know about this , things spread quickly
i was asking myself not to believe what other people say
but
i still move on as my old self


do u know ? when the first time i have feelings towards you ...
so many good friends of mine has so much conflict and betraying happenning in my life ??
i always trying to improove myself and again and again
i dun care whether people accept me or not
i just know that i dun belong to any group for long
this case
i dun wan to tell out if becoz i know its something personal , and i dun wan to make it so hard for u becoz u are their friends

becoz of changing myself better i talk to them who betray me instead of wacking them and being a barbarian


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days goes by ,
when i talk to u in msn ,
u reply me as if u dun even wan to talk to me ,
but i keep trying trying ,
i never give up ,
everynight i got say good night and ''zhu fu '' u and him to get to know each other and get along before i sleep


i know it hurts , and it hurts very bad in my heart
but i still do it , these words just cant come out from my mouth
so many things happening behind me
its just like falling in a deep hole
...
and it gets in deeper
deeper ...
and deep



as my wound never heals ....



i just feel very bad , and wondering whether liking u is a bad thing ??
and finally i realise , u dun trust me and start to have less confidence in me
i am shy and emotional when it comes to liking someone and never tell out
its just me

things changed around , during the movies , i really think alot and not paying fully attention towards the movie
that is why i am thinking alot
i dun wan to say something stupid
but my face just showed it ,
i dun that to happen ,
but i just wan to feel your last existance when i am with u
as in a distance ,
coz i will try and do whatever just to stay away from u

i know its hard to believe everthing is different from what is infront of me
its worse to compare the view of my front and back
i just feel ........
i know everything from what have u think from the beginning
and as predicted it happened

thou

everynight my mind wonders and worry about u
that is why i dun like u to go to clubbing
its not that i wan to control
but i know i cant be there for u
im just dun suit to be your boyfriend ?? and suddenly felt that
just a minor conflict and misunderstanding and makes u feel different about me
i tried to forget about u
my tears just keep shed every moment when i am thinking about you

no matter where ever i go and what ever i do


*this pose is to someone who i really deeply in love before *

butterfly lovers~

i watched that movie today , nice movie thou , touched by that movie ,
ah sa u're acting very good ne , i love your movies ^^

also first time see wu zhun acting , hmm ok la





have to go ~ *no mood *

mature de sam !!

saturday~

saturday morning , i've been awoke by a phone call
my friend harry gave me a wake up call
he rushed me , need some help
he drove me and his sister to ss2 , suppose to promote streamyx and celcom broadband
saw some mppj strolling there , we change location SO
we change location to TAMAN MEGAH

its already 10am and we planned to do the promotion thing in the morning market

BUT


its consider late , many aunties just go there and have a 5 minute shop for food ~

after that harry treated his sis and me for breakfast !! haha dimsum !!
kind a full after that , i reach home with that mood of mine ~

maybe sales is what harry have trainned me , eventhough i know my art can't bring me that far ,but at least doing sales is my another route to success in life

my mum is doing sales too , but she is doing melilia , promoting something like direct-sales product .
she even told me to join her , but in my mind are HARMONY DRIVING ACADEMY & STREAMYX !!

but it will be even better to do more , since i got this experience haha
my mum already planned and sign my name in some buisness talk for tomorrow by the theme of '' being young and rich ''

she knows that i like doing sales heehee , but she wants me to learn from an experience billionaire haha , its gonna be a talk from 2pm - 6pm just hope i dun die of boredness XP a naughty boy like me can do anything to entertaint myself hehee

wish me luck for tomorrow >(00)<

mix feelings

today school was a mix up man , but it start out quite smooth beginning . as usual my classmates will bragg about stuff haha . its good to see my classmates again ^^ .
lots to talk about , and i manage to see her again ^^ its a nice feeling as if flowers bloom out of a piece of rotton land . its wonderfull.

it came out quite shy for my to talk to her again , but i will keep talking to her no matter what it takes . although yesterday my success for sales did'nt seem to make her a lil excited but i talked about it to her friends hmm ^^ it turn out that she wants to take driving together with me , its nice ^^ in my heart was like , FINALLY u've come to me and my driving heehee XD . all the hard work is paid off and its coming back

ping and i planned to watch horror movie in yuen's house but poh yee did'nt show up , dunno why she also never call us and inform us >.< so after school we are about to wait for yuen with cheauwei along , well suddenly ping felt that since poh yee did not come , so its kind a like lesser by one person , and she CANCELED it . kind a disapointed though . then ping saw en kane , all the way opposite of from where we've standing , then she is kind a looking and staring at him calling him leng chai this and leng chai that , heehee . its funny to see her reaction like that , i also hope to see her with her smile seriously brighten my day .

but at the other hand , i also cannot hide my feelings from her . seeing her happy its good , but wut is for me actually is very hurtful , well its my fault for not being the perfect guy in her eyes . sad thou , but what can i do ? i know that love cannot be forced . its just like wut my friend said to me , '' a pair of swan swimming on the lake peacefully and beautifully , but did u guys realize below the water ?? '' , '' its a very owfull scene , where hardwork is put in , as the pedal with their legs hard just to remain that beautifull of theirs on the water surface '' my feeling is just very pain , and hurt its just like a knife just stabb me out of no where . but i also got wish to forget you and just to forget that kind of pain but i just cant. why ?? everyday and every momment with myself alone , im just thinking about you . cant sleep because i am thinking of my faults , and mistakes and also wuts wrong with you being so quiet , that always reflects me as being a bad person ??

To her '' i know liking u in the first place is wrong , cause i know u like that person very long . but one thing i want you to know that the moment we have together as friends is something that a feeling which is growing inside me because of ur existance and ur smile , your smile and trust is so powerful to me . i really love it , although it is not visible for ur trust but my feelings are telling me everytime . just most of the things reminds me of you , it will be a hard stage for me to let you go , but i just cannot do that so easily . it is because i really deeply fallen in love with you ''

wut can i do to make things better ?? i admit i am dumb at times , im not that sweet kind of guy that everyone is thinking about . just like i said i am not perfect like the person that u are admiring =( but everytime i see him , i would like him to be my role model . seems like he is perfect , a 5 star leng chai to girls but i also got good points heehee ^^ im also not that sucky le ~

after art lessons , my art teacher free us out of the class early , so we went to the canteen , suppose we are very early , so i've met my school most annoying discipline teacher , owhh man he is a fuck off man . i just hate him . (ook i'll cut if short ) he told me and some of my friends to go back to class , so like i just did , i follow his instructions , i walk back to class . so he yell at me and he came and chase me like a darn ass dog well i pitty him for being such an ass in school .

He drag me to the office where all the big heads of the school were . i went in as if i am going in to my toilet , well its just a lil coozy inside there ,i talk to his boss the head of the department of discipline , << it sucks , she just get promoted , but still a kind teacher . i knew her so she knows my style , baggy long pants with a rotten end with the shoe , and long hair heehee my style and a lil attitude with teachers . she gave me a warning letter for the things that i've done but its nothing actually . encik siva (a really dog-behaved)- discipline teacher , which runs his job like a waiter in indian stores >.< yet still i pitty him he have to ask for permission for caining me haih i wonder those days whether is he getting enough of student banging him down from his motorcycle haha . after talking to that ''encik siva '' his boss talked to me politely since we've known each other since when i am form 4 haha so its one years ffriend heeheee , still she did not disapoint me for talking to me like dat . but she let me off

after thinking about that lucky i am the one who is being caught by the feller , coz she was there in the canteen too , i dun wan her to take blame . So i was the one who is sacrifice for her , and only her in my heart . i dun wan her to take any mistakes so i take the blame for her and for those who are innocent . some how i think it is very worth it .


so i walked back and it rains , seeing the girl that i like, rushing home with the rain , im just so worried for her , i hope she did'nt get sick , coz i really care about her ~ and if she gets sick i will feel pain in my heart .


dun get sick yeah , coz i really concern that very much although it is just a small matter but it will cost my life to feel it together with u and i always think about u

close a sales ??

yeah !! finally i've close a sales man !! commision rm30 !! haha , i smsed a few people , well my friend harry congratz me , but one thing that did'nt made me happy is , you . cause when i messeged u , u dun probably care =( well its ok .

maybe i messeged u wrong time ?? gomenasai (sorry) ermm i will do better next time . well really hope u have fun with ur mum ^^ hope i am not bugging u >.< but its seriously very happy when i close sales = ) , i hope i can share with someone who i think who is my part of my life ^^

im happy after i left with my commission !! heehee cycle back home smiling heehee

a bomb of change out of my head and thoughts about u

since i know edi , its hard i know . well i will give my turn one more chance to make it up to u . somehow i've forgotten how to talk , ermm i felt that i need to make a change at there . cheauwei said that i use to be talkative but recently mature edi ma , so i talk lesser and lesser fun but i will still try and give it out man ^^

but when things change i would like to be the first to know that the last to realise , coz i doubt whether am i a really close friend with u , the things i do is really from the bottom from my heart one , im not acting or not doing anything to win anything except for the truth la coz i hate rumours and i really seek for it and solve it just like how i solve this misunderstanding , but intend , no need to explain to u . its just a lil difficulty to express myself these days .

yet i still try to act like nothing happen , trying to be the happy me and also trying to avoid everything that can make me feel sad about u , but still i will move on as life goes on and move ahead . XP

i will treat u better and i hope our friendship will be more stronger than yesterday ^^ and also thanks to zinia and cheauwei haha

its a promise between us

a promise for me to her



2 weeks dun talk to the person on msn ! although she dun choi me edi , but still my mind still got her ne , but only 2 weeks dun talk to her , it will be better dun talk to her face to face , but if i cannot tahan , well as long as i dun talk to her on msn .




your sincerely and the one and only kingsum XD





2 weeks man !! i wan to really think le , 2 weeks later only take decision
but something hit me back again, i have this feeling that i will not follow de haha , i will still talk to her haha since those things that she is hearing from other people . well haha i know wut she know haha , but i memang not this kind of person ma . im happy coz u are trusting me again , but seriously i memang nothing de

finally happy

today , felt very happy haha , sat with cheauwei , cheaurou haha and also kar kay >.< well its nice to have pizza with so many people haha , its fun muahahahaaa
today is also the only day that i did'nt think of anything extra , feeling very happy during classs , i was knocked out for one hour and did'nt notice about it , no one wake me up , my indian friend told me that i sleep like a ghost .

after school i've eaten pizza's well dunno how many i've eaten , but got food dun waste .
being a good boy is good haha and i felt really better today.
after that , i cycle back uphill to my house ^^ its a hot day , well what can i do ?? i'll just have to drink lots of water to stay healthy

miss or not miss , care or no care

its me again , and with my new attitude , although i know there are still things happen around somewhere , but i am still a human being with a heart and a strong will. girls , haih girls . mostly guys are sad and live becoz of girls. Girls treated me like trash , some treated me like god, some treated me like shit , a number of girls treat me like their best friends . well there are so many kinds , but each time i fall in love with one of them , this is always sad things happen to me .

it is either they are bored with me , or i am just too stupid or scared to make a move, but this time i really like a girl with my own heart , conflict happen but i manage to change it around . its a new me , and a new start , a new life . although i know she's been going out with someone . but i am feeling worry instead of angry and sad . i cant control everything , and cant control her doings and behaviour , i like wut she is and i like wut she is before and now , with all my heart .

somehow i feeling that i really hate myself for not doing enough , but as a friend there's limit and everything have a limit . maybe she gave a chance for me to kao her , but i still not ready for it , so im kind a fuck that chance , but i know my feelings are right , so i will still continue no matter what !! this is a promise to myself ! i will not let go so easily , i'll just back off if there is someone who wants to get u . i will know my limit , but i still cant make a move coz i know that i cant give happiness to u , nor protection or even conditional love or unconditional love . so i dun think i am ready physically or even mentally , well sorry to disapoint u .


guys i will gambateh ! i will get a career and a stable living then only i will go for u !! i will not regret de !! i will not make u wait so long !! i will fight for it as live is a war !!! i must get that victory to proove that i can do it ~

my feelings ~

well this is me , my expression for tonight








i seriously trust myself , than rumours



if rumours still remains


no matter how close ur friendship , best friends will not be best friends , if rumours are believe blindly






so trust yourself first , and get to know the TRUTH , so that u will not lose a best friend ^^

i miss myself in 2007

its me 2007 midyear ~



nothing else just felt that i've change so much haha but i stilll like my previous appearance haha but it was all came to an end

i bet the new me will be a better looking and a better person , and good attitude too ^^

cooling time ~

DAMN, time passes by real fast . days go by , things are getting chilling . after hardcore session with bk , i felt real comfortable , and happier.

After hardcore talking , i rushed to OU to meet up with ping and friends , haha and yuen's mum haha . Cool people , those are the people that i wan to mix with haha , damn crazy but fun haha comfortable . pizza session , PIZZA MADNESS !! woohoo damn crazy , lost counted of how my pieces haha , but we manage to wack the pizzza in our stomach ^^

haha 23th september another pizza war for me haha !im gonna wack all again haha !!


my conclusion is , when a person is a truth seeker like me , he will seek out rumours and the cause of the rumours untill the can find the root of the truth XP

game over [D5] short time ? satistfy ?

well after that courage of mine went in my head , i guess i turn this game around . somehow my friends told me after the talk with the person who willing confess himself. so i've got to say that u've done a good job , but time is everything for the recovery and people thinks about ur impression too although u keep it well , but i did'nt win anything at all .

but one thing that i won is the TRUTH , the truth between the jelousness and all that scene behind me . u've done more than a friend , so i just say that u've done too much , which will make people feel suspicious. i've learnt lots of things from this case. felt relief about it . and i suppose u too .

things should be this way , when u know about the truth , u will solve the problem and do not even include any girls or guys that the person like , just come and ask straight , do not hide and backstabb and talk bad behind , its not great at all. although i change this drama just 5 days , well consider very chilling and pro already , felt that my thinking had grown lot of level and stages in one day .

although u've said that im childish before , but its just a cover of mine , i guess i blow it and made u shocked , well presenting the new me . I expected u will have this feeling , its just natural , just u answering me questions and i know which is lie and which is from the heart. lucky i've complete things this way . i hope this is over for the rest of my life .


coz its too political ! and a surprise for myself , i've help myself to become stronger even in tears and memories of sorrow . that moment is really dark and lonely. but one thing is i dun trust anyone , anymore not even my family , the success road is a lonely path for every human being and i know that friends are just another noun for betrayers , i dun buy that anymore . u're lucky that u've never met my bad side of me , cuz u dun wan it to happen , dun let me hear anything from u , cuz i will be stronger and stronger everyday

my happy ending ~ its just starting baby

so much for my happy ending , well i guess not , the real my just rise.
u think u got friends support?? well i tell u its just a matter of time.
i will proove it to everyone , im the person that u think i am ??
haha infact , the way u looks sad ?? i feel damn 7 happy !
stronger than ever , no one can beat me down ~
well try me i will be sad to see u being such person, all along i see u wrongly
judge with all u can , coz if u think that threatening her is wat u can do ? well guess again ! i am not that kind of guy right now , since u can do that , i can do better but i dun wan coz i dun wan to become another jerk like u , the ''mastermind'' behind all cases

turn it up ! 5 minutes to midnight!! you're coming home with me tonight !

woohoo , sept 14 pass , im back brand new again.
im feeling great and loving it.
haha well off to books and facts to remember ^^

well time is precious , gonna make it up for you .. you will see my journey starts !

D2 begun

everything flashes back just the night yesterday , very bitter , as if it was like watching a drama scene. skiped school early this morning , too tired , so many things to think last night , the cause and effects , mostly all are negative signs , try to explain ?? i dun think so , its hard since there's nothing between in this thread of frienship.

the existance is really making me sick day by day . i can't really control , but somehow have to . to get hold of myself , i excercise everyday , rather than emo. i just wan to get my mind on the target that i've set. kind a like a diverge from the past. well sam gets reality , its gets better when u think something positive. enough ENOUGH of pain stalking things , GOTTA STOP IT.

lastly but not last , i will blame myself , all along . for not being the person that everybody is thinking , go on think wat u wan . as long as i am happy with it , but it sounds so rediculous , i just want to find a way that i can express myself towards something that can't spread out secrets , i hope that the person or the thing will appear in mylife and can make myself feel better day by day , hopefully this hole of mine or scar will heal but i know medicine cant heal that fast , coz it hurts alot perhaps a scar in my life

mooncake festival ? lonely ?

today suppose to be a nice night for romantic couples , and lovely family love feeling. but what do i have ?? nothing , i have none not even a family love , lonely ?? yeah i felt that once , infact , i feel it when i am writing this post.

problems lately , just so many of them , brainstorm till i can die , too much too many , too many drama lots of stuff. maybe i mature already , too many things have to handle . seriously i hope if i can explode like those days , but seem can't. i cry in the middle of the night , calling out for help . there's no one , no reply , none . emoness in the dark , always find myself eyes swollen by the next day , not enough sleep , disturbia , last time use to be very relaxing.

now i dun find myself like me anymore , not anymore. friends ?? trust ?? guess wat ? i dun wan to be a good guy from today onwards , maybe evil or devil ermm seems which one is better ?? darknesss all over me , found the long lost me , haha my imaginary self just like the one in that anime which the guy found back him ownself can became stronger. well i hope i can be someone like dat , perhaps even more evil and more hate in my mind . i dun see love anymore , not even a bright sky , judgement is made by rumours and fucking fake trust is made by lifeless faggat and guess wat ?? people believe it and they feel happy for it

well wat for being played like this ? i dun wan to be in this way anymore , being a whole time loser ? or seeing who is gonna be the best loser ? day by day the feeling will come back to me , sooner or later i will meet him , he will teach me anything that i wan to learn ........

i cant draw anymore , the touch of that talent is slowly getting away from me , i cant draw .. sooner or later i will not use my name as SAM LAU KING SUM , or im not gonna care wat people call me by names , i just dun wan to admit and i am always alone. there's no light or laughter just that the things that i do will not success , why ?? i keep asking and asking , but yet i still cannot find the answer

a dull day for me ~

well out of a sudden feeling like blog , but there was nothing about in my mind , just tired, woke up early this morning to refresh my mind for my moral exams.

After school , did'nt went lunch with boon khit and friends . some unwanted people are there , anyway i walk my friend home as usual and had a nice nap on the floor



i look terrible , just imagine to wake up 4am and end up like this in the afternoon

haha taking nap also can camwhore arr ?? lols lots of people said that to me , but think at the bright side i take this picture with my eyes close and get that angle right ?? haha im pro , but nothing to be proud of , just a normal kid that have nothing to do in the afternoon ..

i wanted to blog like my friend's style well pictures are more than a thousand words .. anyway im not that creative in words but i will always be improoving myself.
Anyway the weather is crazy recently , i hope all my friends out there just to take care of themselves , drink more water and keep ur health in good state ^^

september 10 , a change for now and then

seriously rumours and conflict have to be stopped , i've enough already. i've lost a friend for my mistakes , and now u're happy coz i dun think that its worth to loose a friend becoz of a girl , that just sounds sucks man .

and life goes on , if u think that blaming me and flame my name is a nice thing to do , then do it , coz i dun really have much friends out there . GO on , since u think that both of our misery have to be share with so many of ur friends out there . i dun mind coz i dun really care . well i hope u can think back of ur feelings which takes actions but not ur brain , i just felt sad for that .

for friends , trust is a golden key to every relationship , no trust no friend , no trust no love no trust no girlfriend. its easy , even my dad no trust which means no dad , but wat to do since his sperm produced me , wat can i do ? i just have to call him as ''dad'' just for his name same thing as for a buddy ranking , he is the one who drop my rank from ponteng buddy to friend and now no more , long gone ~

but wat can i do with ur jelousness , its just keeps goes on , no matter i give u so many advice that can help u in ur thing . now since u cut it , and its over for the friendship that last for that 3 years . well good bye , since u think that everything is much better for u

lastly , rumours making are just for lifeless people who dun really have a life so just get that sense of urs to trust anyone , why trust rumours ?? the TRUTH is the thing that u need to know , open ur eyes

september 4

well nothing much about today , but i feel that having dinner in ming tien with my pal boon khit . we felt kind a bored already , seriously , dunno wat to eat . the things we eat kind a lifeless and all the worker also know wat we gona call .

haih stupid boon khit freaking maths freak !! gonaa score 100% GO DIE LA ! but potong steam !~ haah he is careless and he is damn careless and great news !! A1 but no 100% for U ~

oi bk la ~ damn noisy la u ~ dun repeat the same thing u say la ! du lan edii la haha haha joking edii man !! dun wake up with tai chi la ! i feel de wind k !




just feel damn lifeless but have to study , haha i got pictures man bk and you dun have !! dun du lan me hahahahaaa

my day ~

haha my room damn clean edii now !! ahah thanks to boon khit

haih ~ my pal , he's gone ~ face the fact

i really had nice time with my friend , can consider as my brother . know him since young . we did all the stupid things together and stuff , memorable and crazy . he came here this year for one month due to summer holiday there . he told me about leaving early when he was here got the first week but he told me that he was sad at the end , infact he is still miss his family right now , i can tell he loves his brothers and his sister very much .

although he did'nt spend much time with his friendz this year , he felt quite bad about it too , but since everyone is still so busy around with their last exam for this year. he also felt that he should'nt disturb them , where as i thought that the reason he came back was to have the family feeling again . Good thing i stay near his house , i can visit him even the last minute , the last day of him in malaysia , the las moment for being in the curve.

lonelyness in taman megah is getting stronger and stronger everyday . its just that i feel that hanging out and go yam cha with u i damn great thing and cycling to . but too bad this year we did'nt do much coz of ur schedule , but we did something great , melaka on schooling days ^^ chicken rice balls.

after all of those excitement , i felt that life have to go on and i have to face the reality , i cant juz go around cycle with no reason , and i know that success is a lonely road. some people who are willing to fail just not to be lonely , i felt that is something of a dreamland . As a human , i would like to face the fact , face the problems , face the problems and solve it . Every problems gives real lessons in life and experience .

floating slipper in KL

a phone call ~~~

after i picked up , ( oii boon khit !! petaling street man ~ )

we started rushing downstairs and quickly bought our tickets and get into our ride. From the LRT , the window showed that it was just drizzling, small little tiny rain drops only..haha we walk and walk and walk, searching for the jacket shop that jermaine wanted to look for. haha half way walking, a guy come over : hey, leng zai, wanna buy dvd or not?? we shake our heads. then that guy totally changed his tone of voice and say : ham dai mou?? ham dai ham dai....i was like wtf ! then he keep following us as if all the teenagers are polluted...haha after a short while he stopped following us, so glad that he stopped, ahhaha

on the way to the nearest LRT station , there are floods on the road . i tell u its a craap for me to run like a chicken with slippers ... somehow my slipper juz get stuck in the rushing drains and it got floated again . and lots of pedestrain are laughing at me , but who cares i dun care at all , and it found it very fun when attention was on me , nahh dun care thou ...

lucky thing that the slipper was being blocked by the huge tire of the bus . thank goodness~
i wore back my slipper again , and bk and jermaine were like laughing like mad coz i am holding a pouch and an umbrella ~ phowww crazy afternoon


and one thing about my pal , boon khit !! walao i like ur hair man like bush !! *haha i am so dead man >.<>

he looks retard but he is also known as the CALCULATOR !




ITS GETTING LATE , IM GONNA SLEEP IF NOT SOMEONE WILL KILL ME BADLY FOR BEING LATE TOMORROW AND ONCE AGAIN TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY



TO BE CONTINUE~

a rainny day , get prepared ~

well recently i realised that its rainny season , the best way is to prevent from getting wet to school so today i prepare myself yet still last minute , well my mind kind a slow when i wan to do something good for myself . i can say that maybe this is a way to love myself , coz normally i dun care at all and just be wet and have fun ^^ my mum's reaction was ... =.= and wow !! son u bought ur self something beneficial !!


and this is wat i do before i put in my bag !!






ngek ngek camwhore abit !!

its me in raincoat

this will prevent me frm gettting wet

this will prevent my pants from getting wet too







well i spend quite a lot but i think its beneficial than playing in cc !! haha

realising the day had come

well today is the last day of my holiday . anyway i feel that although my parents left me alone in the house for 3 days ?? i dun think that is a great idea , i juz too playfull and now i am regreting for not using my precious time for myself . Recently , im spending all my time with my friends , knowing how are they doing , and sometimes be a busy body for a while . At the end it all worth , cuz the end of the day , they appreciate it .


as for studies , i think that i manage to handle , but juz feel guilty that i've spend unecessary . somehow wasted my youth . i juz dun wan to waste any of them anymore . and i will work extra harder and harder to acomplish my goal .


i always tell myself that i wan to become somebody successfull and beat all my friends .
there will be one day ! i make sure i will do it !!

suppose to study BUT gundam and dot hack sign // G.U

currently my favourite characters , but
they are rivals

Finally, the most recent series and my fav to date. 00's not complete, but the storyline so far's pretty interesting. I like how they bring some totally unrelated characters closer and closer to the main story. Also, this series touches rather heavily on the current world situation more than others, even using the same AD calendar. Having 4 gundams, and 3 don't know wat, makes the story line easier to follow. it's very easy, there's been wars and celestial being doesn't like tht, so they got gundams in to save the day, and the world doesn't like tht. so it's a conflict b/w 4 gundams and the rest of the world. then to make it more interesting, they introduced rogue candidates and other factors to create a mystery in the story line, wat is the true intention of celestial being?
So from the gundam series, i realised that action only plays a small part in the overall reviews. story development and other elements the authors put in play more crucial roles.

i spend time watching this , the graphics really blow me off ~
i did think something that can come out from that

he looks real evil !! yeah
i love this , could'nt find any pose like him , so i've edited from the original wallpaper

haseo's last form !! so leng chai !!!

im back once again !!! thank you thank you ~

walao speaking about back , i juz broke down the door in my house and guess wat ??



IM BACK ~


today is very pissed up day . suppose to have tuition , but there is one fucking smart feller who thinks that he is f*cking smart , being a f*ck head which f*cking around with the whole class . made everyone did'nt come for tuition . U THINK U PAY ARR ?? siao lang , my ''calculator'' is not for scolding u biachhhh !! and once again thanks for being a wasted sperm* a f*ck head like u is unwanted in this world and this universe !!


if i toot u in the face , not so nice ~ well i will think another way of toot u back kao kao , ermm making 2 persons waiting for the the whole class to be absent , ermm great idea .. i will plan something that will make ur life miserable .. u f*ck head ohh yeah , from today i will call u f*ck head or lan tao ?? ermm i prefer f*ck head under the wasted sperm society ma ~


anyway if he wants to mess around , talk to me den . who he think he is ?? he is juz an ordinary loser of all . anyway there will always be a next episode of this interesting climax of mine 0-0





dun fuck around with me ^^

morning GO KL !! WOOHOO

August 16

Hey guys , i was real tired after last nights , karaoKaY !! .. so i slept quite early and woke up early too . 7.15am im still in bed thinking , 8.30 still in bed * thinking of someone , 9.am i on my com looking for new games and news ... ohh yeah i did promise my friend to buy something really special . so i decided to go to KL pavilion to get something for her .

i left the house immediately , and head over to the nearest LRT station. Along the way , i saw a european feller , reading by the book of '' HOW TO UNDERSTAND MALAY '' ennnnn . i dun understand about it either , frm wat i've heard a malay lady came to approach him , he said because he had married a malay wife , and he wants to know more about it and i was wondering why are there so many chicks out there and he want to get a malay lady as wife . ermm i juz dun understand , i felt marrying a malay have a lot of customs and stuff very problematic ?? As far i can concern that , the guy is very knowledgable , i like his habits , reading in a public transportation ^^ .

After 20 minutes i've reached KL , and straight i head to Pavilion , where my friends said that the things there are EXPENSIVE . LOL which i dun think so , it depends wat type of things u wanna buy , i felt the place is nice and the shops have that classey feeling . i juz like it , compare to sungei wang haha aka lala land . but in sg wang , the shirts are cheap i juz like it , cheap and funny hahahahaaa

*a pouch frm FOS and something from EXTREME*

*a pouch for myself when im cycling*

INSIDE THE BLACK BAGGGGGGGGG

~ A BLACK HOODIEEEEEEEE~

COOL ~ LOGOS [FRONT]





FUNKY LOGO [BACK] JUZ LOVE IT ~

owhh miss it

oops , i forgotten to blog yesterday , anyway i was too tired . My friends and i went to the karaokEeE yesterday . Acutally i was suppose to go to my friend's gathering for primary school students' reunion but i did'nt manage , and felt sorry to the organiser . But singing with my friends were real fun , lols we sang like crazy people . feeeeling high at the time . I know trials are coming in weeks time , i guess . Erm im real lost , and suppose to study like hell , but end up didn't do anything . Anyway we plan this real long time ago , but so many people did'nt turn up , ending up 4 person there . Before karaokEeE , ping and piggie and i went to BOWL ! woohoo i scored 73 man ! and one strike !! haha Ping played pro at first , haha i beat her score ! and piggie play real slow *she's a beginner !! lols anyway funny throw .

After that , i met up with jermaine , anyway sorry girls i have to leave cuz i have to follow his transport =( so on the way , i met ND and king yang . after that we head to curve . whereas ND heading back . we get ice cream at MC D at curve and had window shopping . After that we went home .

darn tired ***************************************

melacca ~

today skipped school , juz to go melacca with jermaine and his cousins . We started blurly at the start , cuz seriously this is the first time that we are going there by ourselves =) but at the end we made it there safely and in time .

it took us few hours to reach there . On the journey we saw the bay where melacca history starts . BIg ships too . We visited the red building or whatever those people named it , along the way , we bought a cute rubber band gun haha ! rm5 only ! but it worth all the fun on the way . We saw many things , melacca has many fun stuff to play with . OUr fun is to pee everywhere , but our best part of the journey is to make joke or the wishing well .. YOUUU da soulja boyzzz .

We had lunch with jermaine's online pal , crissy ^^ she took us to eat some great food =) chicken rice which the rice has a shape as fish ball . wow delicious ! yummy i hope i can have that for lunch everyday ^^ . and then we went to see the first river in melacca , and i saw a lizard as big as a croc ! well im not joking ! i felt that i am a kampung boy *village boy * ermm did'nt see something that big in mylife

As our journey continues , we head to the mall and took a walk right after our lunch . and bowling ~ its jermaine cousin treat us . KEVIN haha xP and later on we were suppsoe to head back , but we had no idea which bus we are suppose to take . we kept looking and asking for information . Finally , we saw the exact same driver that send us from melacca central to the historical spot . the ride was 30 min and we took another bus ride home .


we slept on the way ~~~~ keanne was too bored *kevin's yougest bro *






when i came back i showed them my com ! woo it has crysis in it ! but i have no idea why juz cant support warcraft >< and i made jermaine and his cousins wait .. im sorry that i did'nt called him to come to may jin's house coz i thought that he went out for some praying session .. .. so i chat away with may jin and manda , till forget the time lols we went pasar malam *night market* together haha may jin bought FOOD !! haha and now i am back and ready for bed

yesterday's night made me today

walao man !! yesterday night , bad mood , find trouble with ugly face , lols an ugly face that dunno the mistake . well take a mirror to see the reflection . damn ugly man , not only the look but the heart too .. wat to do ?? i find trouble , fun though but i think back , it is more FUN !! -.-'' lols u know the ugly ?? it is a SHE , so i can call her bitch ! finally a bitch .

muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaaa

lols dunno why i am so happy this morning , i woke up late , but i manage to FLY to school lesser sweat , maybe i did'nt push myself to much . anyway financial is a problem to me now , real tight man , but i got plan for my outing too . but i still feel very fan . juz way too much to think . my friend is right , frm my palm , it juz shows that i am a person who thinks alot . WHEN ONLY CAN DUN SO FAN LE ?? i miss those days where i am lazy and dun think about anything ..


JERMAINE'S farewell
lols not actually a farewell yet but , it was fun . i was crazy at the moment . lols darn u rebecca !! laugh like a time bomb !! and guess wat ?? me TOO !! so we were having lunch ! and wah lao , the next moment , i am broke darn broke ! but we have nice memories and who cares ?? once in a life time ~


AFTER LUNCH
jermaine friends and i went to find the guy that betray his mum's shop *last time * so at the mean time , we saw him working there , i guess he saw jermaine . we ordered drinks . loled 9 ice lemon tea ?? rm 90++ ?? saw that guy's face ! so darn guilty , dun even dare to serve us , freaking PIE ! i dunno why i scold him pie but he is a PIE ! KEEP ASKING FOR BREAK , U FREAKING GUILTY !! u will lost u job man and ur name is listed in my deathnote !! u will know it , u will taste it !! u old freak ! and there we , were searching for him the whole atria , he was like a rat , running here and there . escaping and escaping but we will find him one day ~

After chasing the LOSER
we went home . on the way i felt darn emo , juz dunno wat is the cause of it , maybe my mind was missing someone , due to problems here and problems there , no matter wat i will get that thing that u desire !! u better wait for my good news !!!

shit up day ??

Right after school , rush back home , and dad and mum quarrel . Then i heard DIVORCE . shocked at first , then only realise that father did'nt sleep with mum yesterday. mum kind a mad i guess . well wat to do ?? i felt so out of a sudden . suddenly come back and a nuclear exploded >.< felt bad after that .. and so on .. so on .. i emo on a LRT train .. people looking at me , almost lost my control , tears .........

2 personality in one small body

damn crazy man , anger raging up to me HEAD . After emo in drea's house , i cycle back to my house and have dinner , with anger i came into my house . OWHH SHIT MAN , i see everyone was in the wrong position which is in my mind , everything they do , i will have that feeling of wacking each of them up . i dunno why , am i feeling dat , maybe my body's heat after cycling . like steaming , smoke out of my ears >.< ...

when i am munching my food , i made everyone a complain ! i shoot everyone in the face directly ! without mercy !! well probably i will do that infront of my classmates ! kill them straight ! NO MERCY ''o.o '' ,,I,, toot u man !~~ haih but i after that kind of nuclear explosion ! , i will feel more calm and more relax , its like hulk ! the green and big shit.

That is the reason why i get all that anger which makes me not going to school , i was sleeping half way in the damn night , and my stupid dad come in like a wasted sperm and check my things out , i cant resist the noise i wake up and t**t him straight !! and tell him to get off of my room . well it is juz something crazy , i can sleep in the middle of the night and wake up and fuck someone in the face . WHY CANT HE JUZ GIVE ME PEACE WHEN I AM SLEEPING , EVERYTIME I GO TO SCHOOL I WILL SLEEP FOR AT LEAST 20 MIN JUZ TO COOL DOWN MYSELF AND GET SOME REAL SLEEP

seriously he is juz wasting his time to check me out ! he is darn a crap ! lifeless , and now i am sitting down here and explode in tonight's entry , exploding as loud as a king kong in the jungle ~ later on i will be going to chow yang's kayu there yam cha to relax myself with teh ice or limau ice

a day of my own , once in a thousand years , no money =(

Well today is more of a time for my hobby. As usual i will get mad when i see gundam model !! and guess wat ?? LOL my long lost friend , boon kang [da gurl] finally appeared and called me .. haih , he wants me to take him to buy da gundam models which are cheap =.=''lols and he bought one , grr !! he made me jelous , REAL JELOUS MAN , just man about it when u dun have any money to spend man =(

After lunch , we came back quickly just to fix up the gundam dat he purchase . It was rushing , but we still manage to finish up before 6 . Xp haha i know it is a hungry ghost month , i muz not go out late at night , but wat to do ?? im hungry , my friend called after that we went out to ss2 and have dinner . feels great when ur stomach is filled with yummy food

group study~

Ping's sms woke me up once more , its a saturday morning , sun is bright but still feeling cold .
well i straight cycle and head to yuen's house for the group study all the way from taman megah to centrepoint . we had study about history of malaysia , about the World War 1 ! ,it was very blur during the start , yet i finally understand after ping gave a second explanation , thanks to yuen , i dun understand wat are u talking about !.. so at the meantime waiting for our special guest , moy lien .. hmm she did'nt call before she came .

So the weather is darn hot , so the girls and i decided to have a drink in 7-11 in centrepoint of BU. well so i plan to take my bike there .. and guess wat ! all the girls want to cycle haha , its funny to see them cycle . For them its like , they never cycle before haha .. noobies haha poh yee made me all the trouble to make the sit lower , haha take my time to make it low man , where as ping cycle like a nervous girl , lols and yuen with her fat ass *haha she is gonna kill me again * haha when she is cycling , ping manage to slap her ass once more *PIAK * hahaand moy lien with the stereng problem juz can't cycle straight hahaha ..

After the drink we walked back from 7-11 with my bike XD and go on study for the past 4 hours , bored though , manage to study untill the cause of ww1 but still stay at there for the past few hours again , chat and stuffs . yuen's mum came in and join us chat too , its crazy , a study group changed into a chatting gang haha .. that time was around 7-8 pm , the sky is getting dark, all of us went back home safely =)

hyper day

MORNING
so today is a cold morning , last night raining MA ! had the best pjk !! haha play with the girls hahahahaahahaaaa , cuz lots of body contact MA! ok la i dun wan to be pervert* we played with our pjk teacher , PN Tan hmm ^^ a very fun and wild teacher !! heeheee the one who decided to play half court basketball WITHOUT RULEZ !! omg it is a disaster !! lots of *body contact * once again , ping pull my shirt to the maximum !! cant move freely , and yet i get scolded by mayjin >.<>.< haih she mark me so geng chao , how i deng back worr , i scared terkena ma haih people got bumper de la , dun so bad ma , i got a good heart de *heehee* XD haih almost every shot miss for me , but at the end our team won and yuen got herself a free molest *wakakakakakaaa* by our friend moy lien !! woohoo lucky not me man , if not i will kacao her forever man XD

Afternoon
we had lunch at Atria's penang cravings , with cheauwei and her emo sister , yuen , ping , pei , kay, sukie and brother boon khit . walao weii i refill the jasmine tea like no body buisness haha untill the waitress du lan me , keep staring at my cup only haha , and way true i eat like 3 person's appettie haha no joke , wan me to demonstrate , belanja saya ma i will sure eat it puas puas. So haha thanks to cheauwei , she gave me half of her nasi lemak to me haha btw the beef is alright only , and also to yuen , coz she gave me her kuay teow !! woohoo .. plus my fried RICE !! wahh very full man



******************at the end all of our meal WORTH rm109.++ ***************************


a wonderday have been ended cuz after lunch cheauwei , yuen , kay and me went to tuition at pn NG's place for maths , and saw brother jermaine on the way ~

another fine day ~

hey, its another fine day , as usual i rush to school recklessly with my bike XD and cars all hated me when i am crossing the junction .. so i manage to reach school before it gets any late , there are friends that thought i will not come again , due to yesterday's stomach pain , so school was great manage to see friends again and getting better and better , so ping and other friends suggest to have lunch together in pizza hut , lols we all enjoyed .. in the last minute , jen liz and ah pei joined us . We chat all day long till we went to atria on the top floor . feels great although i've been missing in class for juz one day , to me it is like missing a thousand of lightyears in my time.
i've realised that i've been mixing with the right group of friends and i felt comfortable with them , without them ?? i dunno wat i will be today maybe joining some lifeless people doing something worthless ... those days of mine are way over , with this group of girls , they are people who were beautiful in my life , always .. .. so wad ? i dun care anyone else thinks that a guy can't join a bunch of girls ?? well it is either they are jelous ?? or they juz cant hmm.. ^^ u juz have to find the right bunch of friends which can chat all day long , can be very fun and nonsense at times haha ,, it makes me thought of cheow yuen .
well disturbing her is something that i like the most , her reaction and her pose lol , juz remarkable very cartoon and animated !! juz like those in mangas !! haha juz like it haha wonderfull girl lols she's the pure and innocent thinking among all of us haha juz a lil giant that's all haha juz lots of laughter with her and her pal aka ping ping =)

They always play like sisters in the class haha , same date of birth juz a lil later by one week , lols same lifestyle and stuff , i hope i will meet a girl that have the same characteristics like that seems fun , which i believe that can last longer in the relationship .. .. really did'nt experience that cuz im an art person , hopefully every feeling i have can boost and get myself inspire to things surround me ^^

well for dinner , i had a mountain full with RICE yeah , u did'nt see it wrong its rice !! haha a person with 3 person's appetite ?? crazy ?? im not !! haha im still a teenager with a kid's body >.< overprotective ="(">