D2 begun

everything flashes back just the night yesterday , very bitter , as if it was like watching a drama scene. skiped school early this morning , too tired , so many things to think last night , the cause and effects , mostly all are negative signs , try to explain ?? i dun think so , its hard since there's nothing between in this thread of frienship.

the existance is really making me sick day by day . i can't really control , but somehow have to . to get hold of myself , i excercise everyday , rather than emo. i just wan to get my mind on the target that i've set. kind a like a diverge from the past. well sam gets reality , its gets better when u think something positive. enough ENOUGH of pain stalking things , GOTTA STOP IT.

lastly but not last , i will blame myself , all along . for not being the person that everybody is thinking , go on think wat u wan . as long as i am happy with it , but it sounds so rediculous , i just want to find a way that i can express myself towards something that can't spread out secrets , i hope that the person or the thing will appear in mylife and can make myself feel better day by day , hopefully this hole of mine or scar will heal but i know medicine cant heal that fast , coz it hurts alot perhaps a scar in my life