major fucked up night

a hate that is grown in me since the day that i know what is the word ''fuck'' . My dad start to educate me discipline when i was little , but too bad i don't know what is that at all . Therefore he use harsh way so that i can change ?? but guess what ?? i was only 11 that time . since that years he have been threating like a peice of shit that is been came out frmo my mum's ****

when his company is having some kind of problems , i was being the one to be fucked upside -down . where is there a dad wake the son up at 3 am and tell him to work his ass off and wash his estima ?? *that time when he is still ok with financial*
i am still a kid larrhhh come on , i dont know anything . being spank at the face when i start laughing with cousins ?? what the fuck is this ?? no fcuking sense at all .

life is getting even worse during highschool life . infact that is where my hate grew the most among all those years . i've seen things negative way . i became rebellious ever since then . i start to go against every rule that is being made ... school for an instance , i became a devilin ... feels good

i felt that , that is the way to express myself ... i hate my dad alot
during the year of pmr which is 15 the age i am , he stressed my like hell and told me to do household FOR FUCKSS ARHH ?? i mean everyone is being like last minute doing stuff and revision before they even can leave the house ... and this fucker told me to do household , i was mad and i threw all the plates on the floor like a crazy person . then he smacked me at the ear , my left ear drum is broken , bleed and went off the hospital for medication .

fucking pain weii , seriously he is insane !!

spm year , which i always hear the most shit frmo him . SON U BETTER EITHER FAILL YOUR SPM AND BETTER FUCK OFF FRMO MY HOUSE AND START YOUR OWN LIFE K ??

wtf is this what a father should say ?? plus he shouted at me to fuck off from this house and going to tell my aunty to stay outside wtf weii he is not human .. i rather feel wtf am i in this world for ?? to kena fuck ??

then tonight no dinner , without telling me earlier .. and he start to complain that i am asking too much .. come on i am just asking some basic stuff like dinner ??
asking for dinner also got mistake arr? ? wtf man !!
so i was asking that .. and he got so mad and he yelled at me , i was also trying to find a chance to fight him back !! therefore i spoil the damnn cupboard , broke few glasses and plates , and the toolbox ! and i hand to hand combat him





haihh why my grandfather did'nt torture him ?? haihh someone help me arr


of couse i win the combat lar !!

yeahh~

life is just getting better and better , finally i've got my celcom 3g haha can online =) somehow they have this kind of limitation 5gig ?? my area sux cause dont have p1 w1max .. cause their package is like rm199 but u can use fro 20gig and 20 gig is like damnn a lot mannn ... some how here they dont have the reception for it =(

i skipped class today , cause i dont have the mood to draw today .. just dont know , usually i feel excited but recently haihh i just dont know what happen . yeahh yesterday i've got my ear pierced right at the bone there wahahah ouchh right ?? heehee .

college life is getting better and better , i've like social till everybody knows my name and stuff haha kinda cool haha and very unite too ... the group is kinda like very universal style , aint lala or some other shit .... in that group u can see nothing pure at all just normal and smart people and a joker like me haha and fuck the losers from smk dj , sucks to be with them haha

i just cant wait to get my illustrator cs4 haihh cause i really need it for my coursework and alot of practise too ^^

anyway today is a lil special day , kinda like can online !! heehee !! love it haha

2 week in college life

haha i manage to find to online in my college's library ^^ .. well well what else can i say?? ummm sure is the unnamed guest is pretty annoying me , but if he bugs again , he sure is gonna test my limit >.< colllege life is well ... what can i say ?? stress ?? haha not yet i guess , not till the important assignment comes haha .... but pretty difficult compare to highschool


haha the people ?? the people here is not bad , manage to be in a sort of a group ^^ most likely very warm , kind and friendly ... some says feels like home and stuff ? haha but we have lunch always ... besides that some seniors that i've known in here are friendly and helpful .. great thing huh haha .. they really give good advice towards the junior , or shall i say the freshmen haha

lots of laughs and pretty moments recently , just that i hate to sit the bus back home , just imagine after i finish my research in the library .. and i have to sit in that rapid KL buss with all the smelly scent of all the malay and indian awww damnnn don't blame me for saying that heehee

always realise that the library dude feels like his job is so darn bored and lifeless , just imagine all the same work again and again ^^


btw i just love the assignments ^^ drawings and research and USE MONEY like mad on art materials >.<


anyway kind a rush always , so maybe i just end this post by saying ....... '' I WANNA HAVE A LAPTOP !!!!!!"

haha haha haha haha haha haha

finally my type of college

yeahh the tittle says so , im in COLLEGE !! ! finally , and its the third day already . i started off playing cool along the way , but somehow i've just lost it . well new life new style !! haha and till today i've made some new friends too , not bad rightt ???


and the lecturers are not that bad , not like what my seniors have told me . but my classes are mostly in the morning . sometimes i dismiss early , but i have to get my internett!! ahh !!

and yeahh my class got leng luii larr , they come and approach me , and i know my drawing are good hahaa always get picked by my lecturers haha , dont mention about it , im not posting it up heehee

can't wait till my car comes !! but it only arrive next year , sad right ??
anyway lots of research about games and graphics , and also drawings too !!

yeah the world is really small cause i manage to see some people that i use to know during my primary school time ^^
5 damnn yearss , and i've met her again !!
her name is iva , used to draw alot of american comics heeheee
and grace lee ?? she's like the same schools with me since primary school ??
her drawing are amazing always !! salutee her for thattt ^^



its getting late , i gotta go

i'll promise that i'll update ^^

long hair dayss

just gotten myself a decent haircut , thanks to his advice ^^ i look better , lighter , cooler , faster haha the bunch of hair is really very heavy and always slow me down wahahahahahaaa now with the new style i can match my clothes very well ^^


say ,2 more days to college , i am quite gan jiong but im all ready to get there and start everything ^^


wish me luck =p

14-4-09

haha its time , and im already 18 !! legal to do anything wahahaha shh
yeahh my family wanted to give me something special , i request for
a psp !!

with the support of all of my family members , i think my lil dream
will come true ^^ i so wish to get to play graphic games ^^

and yeahh final fantasy crisis core !!

im quite satisfy for this year's bday , at least my parents are looking up to me ^^


thanks to jermaine , i really appreciate your call from all the way USA haha


i hope that everything can go smoothly when i got myself into college

a request to update ??

hmm hmm okok la, i'll try to update k

well once again i am back to this blog , hmm hmm spider webs everywhere !! ahh ahhhh lemme clean it a lil ^^

its been one week already since the day i quited the job , i really have enough sleep lately. all i do is just sleep sleep sleep ! haha and my stress went away hoohoo . i've been starting to work out again , since my right arm is fully recovered .... ouchh the veins are still killing me

few months passed , i guess that everything in my past was settled but not be forgotteen , happy and sad times .... ''ahh..'' suddenly feel so nostalgic , there was one time i felt like i am not myself , so i've decided to spend rm8 to get one stack of new A4 paper just to spend my one month holiday with drawings .

i guess that drawings really can keep me away from thinking stupid and unimportant stuffs , should be thinking of that , one week from now it will be my bday , im a lil excited of it heehee , i heard that my parents will be getting me something special for my 18bday !! haha since small i always been thinking of how my life when i turn 18 !! like some comics that i read before !! where a life of a teenager will change when they turn 18 !! magicc and spells !! cursee !! haha okok i guess that i am just being too childishhh and lame ~ damnn that comic book !! heehee its just so interesting , cant get my hands off it =p


and yeahh recently i've also been very itchy , smsing everyone haha , but only some replied and that sucks that not to be told about many things , i am just being bored la kk !! haha dont blame me for that ahhahaaa, i know my peeps out there are having NS or college k !! but i know your courses are not as interesting as mine !! k !! wahahahahaaa coz i just know how and what is the best for me wahahahaaa




hey !! i'll update k !! dont bug me about it , i'll always remember =p

april fool's day

yeahh today really suck , haha suck the shit out of everything .
and so i went to taylors college , i can say that the place sucks ,
really sucks to the maximum , i even wonder they ever
do maintanence for the car park >.<

later i head over to pyramid to watch dragon ball , and damnn
a little disapointed cause i just wana see goku to go super saia

haihh that scene haha roshi is like a perverted fuck hahaahaa
haha but he is funny ...

did'nt do much after quitting that job , really miss them lots , i plan to rest for one month and train my drawing skills , since its been a long time for not drawing and stuff , training on my focus and skill cannot make it , hopefully i can success and survive in college XD

haih

well what can i say ?? i took many days off
my reasons are .. ...


1.sick suddenly
2.wanted to check out the one academy
3.checking new motor
4.wan to celebrate her bday


i guess i did'nt accheive any of them >.<
i know the reasons , but i guesss im ok ?? now sitting down here like an idiot .
just dunno what to do , passing time like wasting water

the day comess

wahaha i am back again ,, wahaha and no more her , umm realise that she is a bitch hmm but who cares .. umm umm i think i deserver a better person than her wahaha , anyway things gotten more smooth when i get into there wahaha .

well she is not working there anymore , but i will be meeting her with friends for tomorrow .. to all ma sistersss i will miss ya all , will be working till end of this month , and get another job with a better payy !!

baked cookies with them recently , and i realise our cookies are not bad !! umm the pictures are in her blog , umm umm even till now , i am still munching those cookies . . . no one to share it haha but i like those moments with them , so much fun !! except for the hair tie thing grr ... im gonna get u for this =p

anyway our friend jin kan is trying to court my gay supervisor but he failed haha and never show himself in my boutique again wahahahahahaaa

the day

well im back out of no where , just have to say that i am sweating right now and using my friend's pc ^^ ... um somehow my boss knew about that incident for using the company's computer to surf online . i kinda got scolded by him but not that serious. anyway working life have been a lil ups and downs .

friends kinda get sacked because of doing something stupid.. hmm i wonder why they will do that , just hope the fault will not come to me .. my boss told me not to do something that will make myself believe people easily . umm kinda disapointed that she will do that , but who cares ?? i have my life , and i help her enough =.=

i just follow what did the boss order me to , i mean its working life u know ?? just live with it , its not like i will do something so dumb and acting infront of everybody . its just me , i just don't understand at all .

i felt that the job do suits me , but its just the salary does'nt keep me satisfy at all .i so wanted to change job , but where else can i find a job with so much of fun in it ?? i have great friends like my boss and my supervisor and also my staffs too ^^ well other places have more political stuffs going on =.=
i so wanted to see some of my classmates =( but i still did'nt miss school yet blek =p haha


well on valentines haihh , before that night i wanna give something that resembles my appreciation deep down from my heart . she is that someone that makes me feel comfortable when i am together with her . that night before valentines -.- i thought of giving up on her , its because i am afraid that i will not control myself and go emotional till the extreme =( i always think a lot and wild and uncontrollable thoughts and imagination . perhaps this is something that i really have to change . i and her were working same shift on that day itself . she looks more emotional and nervous in the morning . she did'nt tell me what's going on , but soemone told me that a guy already have confessed to her before valentines day , hmm i guess he is someone idiot , i mean ''come on '' its so darn early and such a wrong moment man !! hmm i guess i am the second guy who wants to show my feelings on her but i cant . i have a work to hang on for months =( its very painful inside , just have to wait till she officially stop her work -.-
anyway the gift that i gave her is something really special and its totally original that no one dares to think about it than using money to buy gifts like flowers and chocolates haih

i made her something , well of course im not gonna tell u guys here , umm if u are lucky and u know her , just ask her and see how's her attitude . i can say that she will just trying to act like nothing happen and nothing shaken her heart at all . i guess that this is the bad side of her ?? i somehow just know that she felt it and she just dun wan to face it ?? damnn it man , why dont you just realise and accept it ?? i mean i am not desperate , just that who else do u want ?? i rather just do anything just to achieve my target and my goal . i know these kind of feelings cannot be shown by just money but to me every relationship is very special and precious . just accept that u are different than the ones in my life ok ??

i dunno whether do u know me writing about you but , i can say that at times i dunno whether to hate you or not ?? its just that u told me that u wanna change the way u are , but u are avoiding me and trying to keep away from me that badly .. i mean when it is working , and yeahh u are serious . we are all nearly 18 and feeling of liking someone will be getting stronger and stronger . i dun wan to share too much .. who knows no one will read it ?? hmm hmm i wonder
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bored 2nd day of cny

haihhh today is one day which makes me feel so bored . my supervisor woke up late and our shop almost got saman ! lols he sure have a nice night !! he made us wait like hell . but my friends and i manage to have our breakfast before our supervisor came to the rescue .

we had permission to wear anything we like for the second day and third day of cny , lols so i wore something like my supervisor's style , which are formal collar shirt and a pair of jeans . lols looks like since my manager went back to his home town , wahaha seems like me and supervisor went up one level of ranking haha

since my supervisor is incharge , so i am incharge of supervisor's pose !! lols !! behold my friends , the youngest supervisor in the mall xp



its bored , somebody help me !!

after once upon a time

wahh its already months ever since after highschool's life . now im almost 18 and going young !! wahaha

anyway i know u guys are wondering where is the kingsum that u people are expecting, well my internet is still down and , cause of that i am working in a boutique called , kitschen . a branch which is subbed from nichii . haha my boss and supervisor are great. lucky i met such nice people . im going to work there till this coming june . hopefully everyday makes me feeling stronger ^^ haha

used to feel that working in malls are such a pain for my legs ^^ haha , but not anymore haha cause i have friends working here , hmm rebecca lye and moy lien =)

well suppose i am working with my best friend , but somehow he did badly and got fired from my boss . well as if i did'nt warn him , but he is always slow as usual ,and know things slow as a tortise , hmm haih he needs to make a big change and serious self improovement . so long my friend , if u did well and maintain your performance, and u will still gain respect from everyone , but u did'nt try hard enough . hope to see u success in your way .


well i found out that working is a better place compared to studying , and no more discipline case , lols ^^ its just the self personality which need to be learnt by yourself . human do learn by themselves , through their mistakes and gain knowledge from it . some say that my speech are like a philosopher , but actually i got lots to learn , and more obstacles are ahead of me .



wahaha cant believe i am using the company's line for internet wahaha




ngek~ so long for the people i know who are selected for ns !



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