just a little bit

fianlly those misunderstanding days were over , i finally can sleep peacefully . Somehow my mind did'nt wonder on its own , felt comfortable just a little bit .
Every night , my mind wonders in the past and future , what is my dream is telling me ??

i see people and places which i felt familiar , but i was in some funny clothes , one thing i am sure that it was'nt fake , and in my dream i have this kind of ability to see through dimention , i can read people's minds and heart too .
then she got into my head once again , that feeling of pain and scream ,a scream of a girl which makes my heart bleed .

awwfull ~ dredfull ~ and totally felt pain

my dreams are just like visions , it always jump here and teleport to some other places and totally different time , from the past , present and the future .
i will suffer amnesia when ever i woke up , my head is totally oily and sweaty .
i hate this kind of feeling when i am asleep. i guess something disturb my mind .
lost of memory when ever i try to remember it.

i will have flashes of every lost piece of memory , when the sky is dark and drizzle . i always wonder what is she doing and what am i doing to myself , and i thinking and feeling something wrong ??

i started working with my friend just to find a way to forget about that whole thing , but everytime when i lay my head on my bed , i just felt it back again , its like coming back to me once again . those moments , those feelings , those incident , those scars , those memory ...