i am not facing it at all

from what i know , i am freaking shit off with history paper and now maths , teacher i really let u down .

my stupidity and arrogant attitude towards education is a shame to everyone .
i cant face myself anymore = ..(
i felt useless and lifeless

i cant believe i fuck spm
and i wasted my fucking life and commit to something shit up
i've wasted my youth joining stupid shit up stuff

a dark road and got fallen from the highway , and realised i am the worse

to live in malaysia , i hope my bm can pass just to get that cert
at least a cert to state my failure

my dream is to get into the one academy where my art life starts
i just hope that they will accept me in , not based on my results but i can really draw and i have a mind that is not common compared to other human beings


i cant even open my mind to think and just shit up
i even call myself a fucked up and wasted sperm of nature
laughing away my youth away

people say that study is the most important and easy thing for a human to do ,
if that person could'nt get that , there's no difference compared to a barbarian

ended writing in a sick condition