the day

well im back out of no where , just have to say that i am sweating right now and using my friend's pc ^^ ... um somehow my boss knew about that incident for using the company's computer to surf online . i kinda got scolded by him but not that serious. anyway working life have been a lil ups and downs .

friends kinda get sacked because of doing something stupid.. hmm i wonder why they will do that , just hope the fault will not come to me .. my boss told me not to do something that will make myself believe people easily . umm kinda disapointed that she will do that , but who cares ?? i have my life , and i help her enough =.=

i just follow what did the boss order me to , i mean its working life u know ?? just live with it , its not like i will do something so dumb and acting infront of everybody . its just me , i just don't understand at all .

i felt that the job do suits me , but its just the salary does'nt keep me satisfy at all .i so wanted to change job , but where else can i find a job with so much of fun in it ?? i have great friends like my boss and my supervisor and also my staffs too ^^ well other places have more political stuffs going on =.=
i so wanted to see some of my classmates =( but i still did'nt miss school yet blek =p haha


well on valentines haihh , before that night i wanna give something that resembles my appreciation deep down from my heart . she is that someone that makes me feel comfortable when i am together with her . that night before valentines -.- i thought of giving up on her , its because i am afraid that i will not control myself and go emotional till the extreme =( i always think a lot and wild and uncontrollable thoughts and imagination . perhaps this is something that i really have to change . i and her were working same shift on that day itself . she looks more emotional and nervous in the morning . she did'nt tell me what's going on , but soemone told me that a guy already have confessed to her before valentines day , hmm i guess he is someone idiot , i mean ''come on '' its so darn early and such a wrong moment man !! hmm i guess i am the second guy who wants to show my feelings on her but i cant . i have a work to hang on for months =( its very painful inside , just have to wait till she officially stop her work -.-
anyway the gift that i gave her is something really special and its totally original that no one dares to think about it than using money to buy gifts like flowers and chocolates haih

i made her something , well of course im not gonna tell u guys here , umm if u are lucky and u know her , just ask her and see how's her attitude . i can say that she will just trying to act like nothing happen and nothing shaken her heart at all . i guess that this is the bad side of her ?? i somehow just know that she felt it and she just dun wan to face it ?? damnn it man , why dont you just realise and accept it ?? i mean i am not desperate , just that who else do u want ?? i rather just do anything just to achieve my target and my goal . i know these kind of feelings cannot be shown by just money but to me every relationship is very special and precious . just accept that u are different than the ones in my life ok ??

i dunno whether do u know me writing about you but , i can say that at times i dunno whether to hate you or not ?? its just that u told me that u wanna change the way u are , but u are avoiding me and trying to keep away from me that badly .. i mean when it is working , and yeahh u are serious . we are all nearly 18 and feeling of liking someone will be getting stronger and stronger . i dun wan to share too much .. who knows no one will read it ?? hmm hmm i wonder
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bored 2nd day of cny

haihhh today is one day which makes me feel so bored . my supervisor woke up late and our shop almost got saman ! lols he sure have a nice night !! he made us wait like hell . but my friends and i manage to have our breakfast before our supervisor came to the rescue .

we had permission to wear anything we like for the second day and third day of cny , lols so i wore something like my supervisor's style , which are formal collar shirt and a pair of jeans . lols looks like since my manager went back to his home town , wahaha seems like me and supervisor went up one level of ranking haha

since my supervisor is incharge , so i am incharge of supervisor's pose !! lols !! behold my friends , the youngest supervisor in the mall xp



its bored , somebody help me !!

after once upon a time

wahh its already months ever since after highschool's life . now im almost 18 and going young !! wahaha

anyway i know u guys are wondering where is the kingsum that u people are expecting, well my internet is still down and , cause of that i am working in a boutique called , kitschen . a branch which is subbed from nichii . haha my boss and supervisor are great. lucky i met such nice people . im going to work there till this coming june . hopefully everyday makes me feeling stronger ^^ haha

used to feel that working in malls are such a pain for my legs ^^ haha , but not anymore haha cause i have friends working here , hmm rebecca lye and moy lien =)

well suppose i am working with my best friend , but somehow he did badly and got fired from my boss . well as if i did'nt warn him , but he is always slow as usual ,and know things slow as a tortise , hmm haih he needs to make a big change and serious self improovement . so long my friend , if u did well and maintain your performance, and u will still gain respect from everyone , but u did'nt try hard enough . hope to see u success in your way .


well i found out that working is a better place compared to studying , and no more discipline case , lols ^^ its just the self personality which need to be learnt by yourself . human do learn by themselves , through their mistakes and gain knowledge from it . some say that my speech are like a philosopher , but actually i got lots to learn , and more obstacles are ahead of me .



wahaha cant believe i am using the company's line for internet wahaha




ngek~ so long for the people i know who are selected for ns !



NS=BOtaK






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genting trip

i went to genting for our so called '' class trip '' for 3 days 2 nights umm ... did'nt have much fun there , i guess i did'nt enjoy much but think more instead. ending up sick , well sore throat >.< infact all the outdoor theme park games , haha i've tried em all woohoo . the unforgettable one , which is the space shot !! haha many people felt shocked about it haha and fear towards it ~! haha , i follow the girls play becoz i felt like it lols , im such a follower =p but who cares ? as long i had fun at the lil moment haha

well as far i can remember i also tried on the flying coaster !! haha the one that took my breath away haha , one round of that ride included that 720 degree turn ! and omg ! i fear that my friend will puke on me haha , such a loser lol wahahaaa


the girls

bowling in genting !! wahaha we played crazilly haha , of coz lee ping won every match !! damnn her !! becoz of my sick condition ! if not i will always be the first for sure !!

that's me wahaha
BEFORE

lee ping , the look after she throw the bowling ball
AFTER

her look for a monkey buisness !! wahaha


haha kiddy games !! in a bowling alley !!



my friends and i , and i am on the right !!

taken that lovely picture with the retard me before leaving genting



well so long and farewell , my fellow mates

why today ?

why ?? what sort of thing happen around me again ??
i just doing something good to benefit u people ??
and why ?? why u just left me like this ??
just one text and u left me alone on this lonely road ??
why left me in a time like this ??
why two together at once ??

i cant think of a way out
it seems problems are rapidly coming and coming




is there so many obstacles around me ???
two roads clashing ?? affected my thinking and health ??
migrain lately , health is against me too



everything messed up

stress kao la

someone help me !! i damn kao stress , and i need an assistant !!


call 017-2632667
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im back

well its after spm , im online as usual , infact i did'nt off at all .
haha im back coz someone is complaining that my blog is growing fungi ! lols spider web by now haha all over ! spider man was here *

anyway days goes by , i really being distracted by alot of things , the wounded me was no longer crying in the dark , or bleeding >.< its just those dark moments are way long gone =.= recently dunno what to talk to u , umm dunno at all

i hated highschool life as usual , hate the system , hate the teachers , hate everyone .. i guess that is what i do haha . end of highschool makes me feel more lifeless , not feeling like working

family problems as usual , freaking old man again !! arghhh *hope he die faster *

love life ?? lol its confidential , umm arghh fu*k it again man =p



music life and art life ?? umm theres a lil change in me , i hear black metal and hard rock !! Japanese lala rock also got !! haha
could'nt draw , as if i lost my limbs sobs



my sleeping time are exchange , as if i sold my soul towards the demon ! haha long live satan !! lols and i've became anti christ lately !! haha

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and i learn to play drum just right a day before sejarah spm !! lols kanasai !! wahaha