im back

well its after spm , im online as usual , infact i did'nt off at all .
haha im back coz someone is complaining that my blog is growing fungi ! lols spider web by now haha all over ! spider man was here *

anyway days goes by , i really being distracted by alot of things , the wounded me was no longer crying in the dark , or bleeding >.< its just those dark moments are way long gone =.= recently dunno what to talk to u , umm dunno at all

i hated highschool life as usual , hate the system , hate the teachers , hate everyone .. i guess that is what i do haha . end of highschool makes me feel more lifeless , not feeling like working

family problems as usual , freaking old man again !! arghhh *hope he die faster *

love life ?? lol its confidential , umm arghh fu*k it again man =p



music life and art life ?? umm theres a lil change in me , i hear black metal and hard rock !! Japanese lala rock also got !! haha
could'nt draw , as if i lost my limbs sobs



my sleeping time are exchange , as if i sold my soul towards the demon ! haha long live satan !! lols and i've became anti christ lately !! haha

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ummmmmmmmm ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm



and i learn to play drum just right a day before sejarah spm !! lols kanasai !! wahaha

random me

haha nothing to do , that is why i drew this

fuck it !!

i fucking fail again !! ji baii pukima !! mama pndek luu !!

fucking shit up + panic = fucking leave the classroom

fucked life + fucked spm = i dunno what the hell am i

i am not facing it at all

from what i know , i am freaking shit off with history paper and now maths , teacher i really let u down .

my stupidity and arrogant attitude towards education is a shame to everyone .
i cant face myself anymore = ..(
i felt useless and lifeless

i cant believe i fuck spm
and i wasted my fucking life and commit to something shit up
i've wasted my youth joining stupid shit up stuff

a dark road and got fallen from the highway , and realised i am the worse

to live in malaysia , i hope my bm can pass just to get that cert
at least a cert to state my failure

my dream is to get into the one academy where my art life starts
i just hope that they will accept me in , not based on my results but i can really draw and i have a mind that is not common compared to other human beings


i cant even open my mind to think and just shit up
i even call myself a fucked up and wasted sperm of nature
laughing away my youth away

people say that study is the most important and easy thing for a human to do ,
if that person could'nt get that , there's no difference compared to a barbarian

ended writing in a sick condition

nothing can let me down

nothing can let me down these few moments , im fully motivated !!

im going to do my best in my spm !
spm is gonna determine my life !
im gonna proove to all the fuckers in the world !
i can do it !
i am positive thinking !




if u think u can ,
then u can !

fuck that sohai

im fucking emotional right now ! fuck highschool life , fuck teenager's time , fucking family relationship , fuck everthing ~!


so called dad ! deng u , i declare that i am adopted ! fucking sohai

he ruin my mood once again !
he pressure me during pmr ! i had enough with u

and now ??

u wan to fuck with me about spm ! go die !

ji baii he wants me to move out from this house ??
who the fuck is he ??
he is a fucking old man !

and thanks alot to u mum ! i really hate u too
u help me and stabb me at the back once more

i really dun have this kind of heart towards mankind and love anymore !
i am off alone !

fuck that shit ! fuck everything fuck life !

just nice to ruin my fucking mood for spm ! great isn't it ??
i am fucking mad ! fuck everything that sohai made me became this !!

why emotionally ?? why and what the fuck ??
i already fucking ignore u ! why tiu kao me ??

u freaking lifeless shits !!

graduation day

graduation day , kind a like a nice day haha . ends up not so nice for me , umm maybe im not seeking that kind of picture taking fun ^^ but im ok with it. i got encourage from my dear teachers ^^ love them , pn.NG, pn LIM ,pn LOO and puan shalawati ^^ miss them so much =)

although so called ''last day '' but i dun think that i will shed a tears. perhaps i dun really care so much ?? but at the same time my inner self wanted to care as much as i do , but i told myself , the results show them that how good they are ^^

anyway i've been taken some pictures with my friends , unfortunately one online and send the picture to me ^^


its me and my dear friend cheau wei

heehee cheau wei remember our promise !! heeehee