finally happy

today , felt very happy haha , sat with cheauwei , cheaurou haha and also kar kay >.< well its nice to have pizza with so many people haha , its fun muahahahaaa
today is also the only day that i did'nt think of anything extra , feeling very happy during classs , i was knocked out for one hour and did'nt notice about it , no one wake me up , my indian friend told me that i sleep like a ghost .

after school i've eaten pizza's well dunno how many i've eaten , but got food dun waste .
being a good boy is good haha and i felt really better today.
after that , i cycle back uphill to my house ^^ its a hot day , well what can i do ?? i'll just have to drink lots of water to stay healthy

miss or not miss , care or no care

its me again , and with my new attitude , although i know there are still things happen around somewhere , but i am still a human being with a heart and a strong will. girls , haih girls . mostly guys are sad and live becoz of girls. Girls treated me like trash , some treated me like god, some treated me like shit , a number of girls treat me like their best friends . well there are so many kinds , but each time i fall in love with one of them , this is always sad things happen to me .

it is either they are bored with me , or i am just too stupid or scared to make a move, but this time i really like a girl with my own heart , conflict happen but i manage to change it around . its a new me , and a new start , a new life . although i know she's been going out with someone . but i am feeling worry instead of angry and sad . i cant control everything , and cant control her doings and behaviour , i like wut she is and i like wut she is before and now , with all my heart .

somehow i feeling that i really hate myself for not doing enough , but as a friend there's limit and everything have a limit . maybe she gave a chance for me to kao her , but i still not ready for it , so im kind a fuck that chance , but i know my feelings are right , so i will still continue no matter what !! this is a promise to myself ! i will not let go so easily , i'll just back off if there is someone who wants to get u . i will know my limit , but i still cant make a move coz i know that i cant give happiness to u , nor protection or even conditional love or unconditional love . so i dun think i am ready physically or even mentally , well sorry to disapoint u .


guys i will gambateh ! i will get a career and a stable living then only i will go for u !! i will not regret de !! i will not make u wait so long !! i will fight for it as live is a war !!! i must get that victory to proove that i can do it ~

my feelings ~

well this is me , my expression for tonight








i seriously trust myself , than rumours



if rumours still remains


no matter how close ur friendship , best friends will not be best friends , if rumours are believe blindly






so trust yourself first , and get to know the TRUTH , so that u will not lose a best friend ^^

i miss myself in 2007

its me 2007 midyear ~



nothing else just felt that i've change so much haha but i stilll like my previous appearance haha but it was all came to an end

i bet the new me will be a better looking and a better person , and good attitude too ^^

cooling time ~

DAMN, time passes by real fast . days go by , things are getting chilling . after hardcore session with bk , i felt real comfortable , and happier.

After hardcore talking , i rushed to OU to meet up with ping and friends , haha and yuen's mum haha . Cool people , those are the people that i wan to mix with haha , damn crazy but fun haha comfortable . pizza session , PIZZA MADNESS !! woohoo damn crazy , lost counted of how my pieces haha , but we manage to wack the pizzza in our stomach ^^

haha 23th september another pizza war for me haha !im gonna wack all again haha !!


my conclusion is , when a person is a truth seeker like me , he will seek out rumours and the cause of the rumours untill the can find the root of the truth XP

game over [D5] short time ? satistfy ?

well after that courage of mine went in my head , i guess i turn this game around . somehow my friends told me after the talk with the person who willing confess himself. so i've got to say that u've done a good job , but time is everything for the recovery and people thinks about ur impression too although u keep it well , but i did'nt win anything at all .

but one thing that i won is the TRUTH , the truth between the jelousness and all that scene behind me . u've done more than a friend , so i just say that u've done too much , which will make people feel suspicious. i've learnt lots of things from this case. felt relief about it . and i suppose u too .

things should be this way , when u know about the truth , u will solve the problem and do not even include any girls or guys that the person like , just come and ask straight , do not hide and backstabb and talk bad behind , its not great at all. although i change this drama just 5 days , well consider very chilling and pro already , felt that my thinking had grown lot of level and stages in one day .

although u've said that im childish before , but its just a cover of mine , i guess i blow it and made u shocked , well presenting the new me . I expected u will have this feeling , its just natural , just u answering me questions and i know which is lie and which is from the heart. lucky i've complete things this way . i hope this is over for the rest of my life .


coz its too political ! and a surprise for myself , i've help myself to become stronger even in tears and memories of sorrow . that moment is really dark and lonely. but one thing is i dun trust anyone , anymore not even my family , the success road is a lonely path for every human being and i know that friends are just another noun for betrayers , i dun buy that anymore . u're lucky that u've never met my bad side of me , cuz u dun wan it to happen , dun let me hear anything from u , cuz i will be stronger and stronger everyday

my happy ending ~ its just starting baby

so much for my happy ending , well i guess not , the real my just rise.
u think u got friends support?? well i tell u its just a matter of time.
i will proove it to everyone , im the person that u think i am ??
haha infact , the way u looks sad ?? i feel damn 7 happy !
stronger than ever , no one can beat me down ~
well try me i will be sad to see u being such person, all along i see u wrongly
judge with all u can , coz if u think that threatening her is wat u can do ? well guess again ! i am not that kind of guy right now , since u can do that , i can do better but i dun wan coz i dun wan to become another jerk like u , the ''mastermind'' behind all cases