turn it up ! 5 minutes to midnight!! you're coming home with me tonight !

woohoo , sept 14 pass , im back brand new again.
im feeling great and loving it.
haha well off to books and facts to remember ^^

well time is precious , gonna make it up for you .. you will see my journey starts !

D2 begun

everything flashes back just the night yesterday , very bitter , as if it was like watching a drama scene. skiped school early this morning , too tired , so many things to think last night , the cause and effects , mostly all are negative signs , try to explain ?? i dun think so , its hard since there's nothing between in this thread of frienship.

the existance is really making me sick day by day . i can't really control , but somehow have to . to get hold of myself , i excercise everyday , rather than emo. i just wan to get my mind on the target that i've set. kind a like a diverge from the past. well sam gets reality , its gets better when u think something positive. enough ENOUGH of pain stalking things , GOTTA STOP IT.

lastly but not last , i will blame myself , all along . for not being the person that everybody is thinking , go on think wat u wan . as long as i am happy with it , but it sounds so rediculous , i just want to find a way that i can express myself towards something that can't spread out secrets , i hope that the person or the thing will appear in mylife and can make myself feel better day by day , hopefully this hole of mine or scar will heal but i know medicine cant heal that fast , coz it hurts alot perhaps a scar in my life

mooncake festival ? lonely ?

today suppose to be a nice night for romantic couples , and lovely family love feeling. but what do i have ?? nothing , i have none not even a family love , lonely ?? yeah i felt that once , infact , i feel it when i am writing this post.

problems lately , just so many of them , brainstorm till i can die , too much too many , too many drama lots of stuff. maybe i mature already , too many things have to handle . seriously i hope if i can explode like those days , but seem can't. i cry in the middle of the night , calling out for help . there's no one , no reply , none . emoness in the dark , always find myself eyes swollen by the next day , not enough sleep , disturbia , last time use to be very relaxing.

now i dun find myself like me anymore , not anymore. friends ?? trust ?? guess wat ? i dun wan to be a good guy from today onwards , maybe evil or devil ermm seems which one is better ?? darknesss all over me , found the long lost me , haha my imaginary self just like the one in that anime which the guy found back him ownself can became stronger. well i hope i can be someone like dat , perhaps even more evil and more hate in my mind . i dun see love anymore , not even a bright sky , judgement is made by rumours and fucking fake trust is made by lifeless faggat and guess wat ?? people believe it and they feel happy for it

well wat for being played like this ? i dun wan to be in this way anymore , being a whole time loser ? or seeing who is gonna be the best loser ? day by day the feeling will come back to me , sooner or later i will meet him , he will teach me anything that i wan to learn ........

i cant draw anymore , the touch of that talent is slowly getting away from me , i cant draw .. sooner or later i will not use my name as SAM LAU KING SUM , or im not gonna care wat people call me by names , i just dun wan to admit and i am always alone. there's no light or laughter just that the things that i do will not success , why ?? i keep asking and asking , but yet i still cannot find the answer

a dull day for me ~

well out of a sudden feeling like blog , but there was nothing about in my mind , just tired, woke up early this morning to refresh my mind for my moral exams.

After school , did'nt went lunch with boon khit and friends . some unwanted people are there , anyway i walk my friend home as usual and had a nice nap on the floor



i look terrible , just imagine to wake up 4am and end up like this in the afternoon

haha taking nap also can camwhore arr ?? lols lots of people said that to me , but think at the bright side i take this picture with my eyes close and get that angle right ?? haha im pro , but nothing to be proud of , just a normal kid that have nothing to do in the afternoon ..

i wanted to blog like my friend's style well pictures are more than a thousand words .. anyway im not that creative in words but i will always be improoving myself.
Anyway the weather is crazy recently , i hope all my friends out there just to take care of themselves , drink more water and keep ur health in good state ^^

september 10 , a change for now and then

seriously rumours and conflict have to be stopped , i've enough already. i've lost a friend for my mistakes , and now u're happy coz i dun think that its worth to loose a friend becoz of a girl , that just sounds sucks man .

and life goes on , if u think that blaming me and flame my name is a nice thing to do , then do it , coz i dun really have much friends out there . GO on , since u think that both of our misery have to be share with so many of ur friends out there . i dun mind coz i dun really care . well i hope u can think back of ur feelings which takes actions but not ur brain , i just felt sad for that .

for friends , trust is a golden key to every relationship , no trust no friend , no trust no love no trust no girlfriend. its easy , even my dad no trust which means no dad , but wat to do since his sperm produced me , wat can i do ? i just have to call him as ''dad'' just for his name same thing as for a buddy ranking , he is the one who drop my rank from ponteng buddy to friend and now no more , long gone ~

but wat can i do with ur jelousness , its just keeps goes on , no matter i give u so many advice that can help u in ur thing . now since u cut it , and its over for the friendship that last for that 3 years . well good bye , since u think that everything is much better for u

lastly , rumours making are just for lifeless people who dun really have a life so just get that sense of urs to trust anyone , why trust rumours ?? the TRUTH is the thing that u need to know , open ur eyes

september 4

well nothing much about today , but i feel that having dinner in ming tien with my pal boon khit . we felt kind a bored already , seriously , dunno wat to eat . the things we eat kind a lifeless and all the worker also know wat we gona call .

haih stupid boon khit freaking maths freak !! gonaa score 100% GO DIE LA ! but potong steam !~ haah he is careless and he is damn careless and great news !! A1 but no 100% for U ~

oi bk la ~ damn noisy la u ~ dun repeat the same thing u say la ! du lan edii la haha haha joking edii man !! dun wake up with tai chi la ! i feel de wind k !




just feel damn lifeless but have to study , haha i got pictures man bk and you dun have !! dun du lan me hahahahaaa

my day ~

haha my room damn clean edii now !! ahah thanks to boon khit